As I was sitting here on the bench while typing this (a possible entry I say to myself) I could not help but be in awe of God’s creation. Chirping birds, the sound of the wind, falling leaves, and slowly growing flowers. It’s springtime here yet sometimes still snowing. Oh, how funny is the weather in Europe they say. There is always joy in experiencing another “first” in this lifetime. It’s been almost two months since I left my country, my loved ones, my place of comfort to embark on a new journey God has given me. Still not fully sinking in that I’m already here in the place where I used to pray. You might be wondering how are the first two months, have I adjusted? Not at the moment. Was it difficult? Sure, living in a non-speaking-English country you’ll try your best to understand and to communicate. 😅 One thing this new journey IS TEACHING ME, transitions should really be embraced. Yes, it could be messy, especially with someone like me who loves to stay in my comfort zone, who loves to organize or plan the things I need to do for the next few days or weeks. The first month? It’s a mix of emotions, I’m in the process of letting go of my past routines way back home, and by that it means, I couldn’t see my best friends any time I want to randomly hang out with them, the Sunday service and the people in the church, my mother’s cooking, my dog and the list goes on. Also been in the process of learning a new language and taking note of the new culture where I currently live in. You can also add the feeling of being new in the workplace and didn’t know how to make the first move to communicate. And sometimes classes after works. But as they’ve said, “Aller Anfang ist Schwer”(every beginning is hard). But it’s also one thing to experience living in a new city, leaving everything behind and feels like starting a brand new life. And so I’m sitting here couldn’t fully comprehend how time flies so fast and uttered a thanksgiving to God how He sustained me all throughout. Where God leads, He always sustains. (“The Lord will fight for you, and you have only to be silent.” Exodus 14:14 ) and that’s so amazing when we put our whole trust to God, that even we don’t understand what is happening around us—- We don’t have to. As the Word says “but they who wait for the Lord shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings like eagles; they shall run and not be weary; they shall walk and not faint.”
Though we may feel we are sometimes slowly slipping around but God is holding our hands, there is Him, who is always in charge. Sure there will always struggle, we were never promised a life without tribulations but we should take heart for God has overcome the world. (John 16:33) In this world full of uncertainties, there is a never-changing God that watches over us. We can overcome not because we are skillful enough to plan the next strategies to make nor smart enough to plan what we will be doing next but because there is God who threads with us, who walks hand in hand with us, who is powerful enough to hush the sea even though it’s raging, Who can still the waves and make them quiet and turn the storm into calmness. How great is our God, that even in the storm we can have peace and hope. ✨
This whole transition is teaching me to be grateful whenever I experience trials and difficulties, for these are the moments when I will see God’s faithfulness turning my struggles into victories, moving mountains for me, stilling the storm for me. These are the moments when I will just rest in His presence, wraps in His lovingkindness and grace. Though I may be unfaithful He remains faithful. He is always true to His Word and promises. I delight in that thought, that gives me so much comfort that I don’t have to cross dark roads alone, I am never alone and will never be alone. The Bible tells us that God’s Word will guide us one step at a time, one day at a time. So by writing this not that I figure it all out, I am still learning, to surrender wholeheartedly to His will, to His ways that way far different from mine but I know that His plans will always prevail and are so much more beautiful than mine.
I don’t have to be anxious if I couldn’t see what lies ahead for I have a God who will guide my steps and light my way, who will tell me what I NEED to know. To those who are also in their new seasons. Even in foggy moments, we could just go just one step at a time with the Lord. Knowing one day everything will be made clear to us if we will choose to seek Him first.
Celebrate your progress for there is no slow progress! Embrace every moment for it will reveal the message. Fix your eyes to the ultimate price, the one who will give you unexplainable joy and peace! Always have that expectant heart knowing how God sustained us in the previous season, He will on the next bloom. Let our struggles, therefore, be turned into thanksgiving, knowing that there is no storm God can’t still. ❤️
Questions to ponder:
What are things that are consuming you?
Whom/where do you run to?