For the first time in my life, God allowed my heart to be broken by someone I thought would not have the capability to do so. I could say that he is an answered prayer, and I can consider our 5-year relationship as a match made in heaven (I thought so) Hahah! I was so broken, and I don’t know how to deal with it, but a faith choice had to be made.
Choices I have made that lead me to heal:
- Believing in who God is
I allow God to be my comfort amid my afflictions. I told myself that I don’t need to understand now, but I will hold on to Romans 8:28, which says, “We know that in everything God works for the good of those who love Him.” I gave up the right to understand to have the peace from God that surpasses all understanding. In my weakness, God’s strength was made perfect. I am thankful for my pain, for I have tasted God’s love, grace, and mercy in new ways that I could never imagine. In my despair, all of God’s attributes were magnified.
- Declaring what God has done for me.
I did not allow my misery to ruin my faith; instead, I made my pain a platform. I realized that my problem also speaks to the people around me. As I trust God, I let my life show a glimpse of hope to others’ brokenness. As I suffer and trust God, He comforts me so that I can comfort a hurting world. His love, grace, and mercy to me are meant to be displayed, not to be hidden. The verses from 1 Peter 1:6-7 revealed that the trials I am facing are temporary and necessary for God’s glory. God is glorious, even when my circumstances are not.
I was so deeply hurt to the point that I feared that I would never feel normal again. I admit that “FORGIVENESS” is hard, but I chose to take the first step to forgive not for the people who hurt me but for myself. As I wrestled with God if I should forgive or not, a picture of Jesus’ outstretched bloody arms dripping with redemption flashed on my mind. And this verse popped up, “Be kind to one another, tenderhearted, forgiving one another, as God in Christ forgave you.” (Ephesians 4:32) Yes, you read it right, ‘forgiving one another as Christ forgave.’ God knew we couldn’t do it on our own, so He made a way through His son Jesus Christ. All we have to do is to receive forgiveness and, of course, to give. So, who am I not to offer the forgiveness that was given to me for free in the first place.
Questions to Ponder:
How do you see God in your sufferings and pains?
Should you let your misery ruin your faith, or should you let your faith define your pain?
What is your initial reaction when you hear the word “forgiveness”?
The choices I have made became the beginning of my journey towards healing. It is not easy, but it’s worth it. God will pick up all the broken pieces back again because He is the Lover of my soul and the Great Healer of my scars. When we let God, He will heal what is broken in all of us. The choice is yours…