The night was getting darker I was in my bed trying to comfort myself and tears came rushing from my eyes. I was thinking that night about God’s direction in my life. Me being so impatient to wait upon the Lord made my way to write the story of my life that day.
I needed to secure my life direction.
I wanted to assure my tomorrows.
I was desperate to know where God will take me.
So, I tried my best to pass through my job interview and yes, I did. I was very happy thought it was God’s will for me.
But things changed when I asked Him again, “Lord is this your will for me?” and amazingly I heard silence. The next day I just saw myself crying inside the comfort room of our church. In the middle of the preaching, I rush in and burst so hard because I deeply felt the words I heard saying, “I AM the God of truth, I do not lie”.
During the process of my job interviews, I tolerated a lie that disguised as a kind gesture on my behalf. Many may think that it was a good help and few might notice that it was a creeping lie. How did I know it was not God’s will for me? Yes, you got it because God does not lie, He is the God of Truth as He said He is. So, I dropped it.
Now, how did I process my response?
Truth to tell I badly struggled every day. I have a fear that people won’t see my worth if I don’t have a job and I can’t be of help to my family. My intention here is so clear, I want a job to please people. So, that my parents will approve my resignation and people will validate my worth.
It took me a lot of time to become aware of my fears and why I do things. Then, when I finally felt that my soul was in deep pain, I sought God’s Word and in prayer. I thought all the while I was okay, I did what I have to do. But the wounds were just getting worst until I can’t feel anything but the agony of my soul.
Then here’s what I’ve heard from a still small voice of God,
“Where do you anchor your security to man or Me?”
Right there I knew that I sinned against God. I was putting my security on people. I let them decide how my life would become. The pages of my book that God was writing was interrupted by people I invited that wrote the disconnected storyline of my life. So, the ink of God’s pen messed up.
Now, I needed to decide who will continue to write my story. Yes, I chose God to write it again, don’t get me wrong everything was a process even until now. But you know what God made me realized?
If I let Him be the only security of my life, He will use my story for His glory. As a Christian that is our goal, right? To be used by the God we worshipped and adore, that is who we are created for. He is worthy of our life all in all.
The truth that changes me;
My security doesn’t come from people’s validation
I may not see the whole pages of my story but as I anchor my security on Jesus, He will make sure that my story has its happy ending.
My life here on earth is God’s story prepared for His glory.
Questions for Reflection
Where do you anchor your security right now? Is it in money, your career, your success?
How do you know that it’s your security?
What will you do, now that you are aware of the source of your security?