The world has a lot of uncertainties. We don’t know what lies ahead. We can hope for a vaccine but we are unsure of its certainties.
We all somehow moved by what is happening. Suddenly the world needs to adopt in the “New Normal”, the work hours of an employee were shortened, online selling and buying are on-trend and now we are using virtual meetings as an important way of communication.
The shaking caused a lot of shifting in our lives
But the question is how did the shaking shifted you? Did you shift to become better? Or you just still going into motion?
My Shift Happened
My shift happened during the Enhanced Community Quarantine last March 30, 2020, until April 2020. All along I thought it will just be a long weekend for a month of rest. I’ve been asking God for a good rest to sleep on my bed because the last time I checked I was in my college days when I slept for 8 hours long. Well, I guess when you are growing old yearly responsibilities are becoming high too that’s why sleep is always missed out.
But I came to realized that it wasn’t the rest that I meant to have but healing within me. It was a healing in my soul that includes my mind, my emotions, and my action.
Renewal of Mind
I never thought I had this victim mentality until God revealed it to me. I always see myself as the victim of my past, I easily blame others for how I responded and to the decisions that I made. I was so full of myself because I felt like everyone owe me for something that I did. My mind was defeated and I was allowing those lies to scrunch me until I go through depression.
God led me in Romans 12:2 AMPV, “And do not be conformed to this world [any longer with its superficial values and customs], but be transformed and progressively changed [as you mature spiritually] by the renewing of your mind [focusing on godly values and ethical attitudes], so that you may prove [for yourselves] what the will of God is, that which is good and acceptable and perfect [in His plan and purpose for you].”
I struggled because I was focusing on the things of this world instead of fixing my eyes on Jesus. I get easily distracted because my mind is conforming to the world and not on the Word.
To renew our mind is to intentionally choose God; His ways, values, characters, and will. In those moments that God revealed it to me, I found healing in Him. I felt like a child that unboxing a gift and excited to see what’s inside the box and when I finally opened it, there was a great joy covering my whole face because I received the One that can only transform me. Knowing Who God is and who I am in Him, is all that matters.
Transformation of Heart
I’m the type of person that reacts excessively. I find it so hard to rule my mind over my emotions. I tend to react to my situations instead of responding. I get easily emotional when someone offended me.
One of my favorite childhood games is hide and seek it is when you need to hide yourself to a place where no one can see you unless you will be caught by the person who is “Taya” then your game is over. I have always won that game. But I haven’t realized that it can be true to me, I was so good at hiding what I feel from the inside. At first, it was all okay. Every time I got offended, I cry it out and leave the pain behind then move on. But when the situations are repeating with the same person I burst out and bring the unresolved issues in the past. The results were wounded trust and broken relationships.
In the book of Nancy Leigh DeMoss, Lies Women Believe and the Truth that sets them free, she mentioned this radical Truth:
“Amid the roller coaster ride our emotions sometimes take us on, we have to constantly bring our minds and thoughts back to the Truth. The truth is, God is good, whether I feel like He is good or not. The truth is, God loves me, whether I feel loved or not. The Truth is, through faith by the blood of Jesus Christ on my behalf, I am forgiven, whether I feel forgiven or not. The truth is, God will never leave me or forsake me; He is with me all the time, even when I feel alone and forsaken.”
She added … “If we want to walk in freedom, we must realize that our emotions are not necessarily trustworthy and be willing to reject any feelings that are not consistent with the Truth.”
The Truth is the Word of God. The Truth is Jesus Himself (John 14:6). This doesn’t mean that our emotions have no value at all, it has because God created it too. But this only means that our mind (centred with the Truth) should lead and manage our emotions because by then we will know how to act according to the will of God.
When God revealed it to me, I felt the true freedom from within. I have been set free from the lies of my emotions and to what I really, need to feel.
After those renewing of mind and transforming of heart happened the things I usually do change too. From how I view my thoughts to how I responds in my situations. The difficult part of changing is if you are unwilling to do so. God has given us the access to change what we think and what we feel, it’s our choice now.
What I usually do if I’m in my day off mode is to clean the house and take the remaining hours to entertain myself through social media or watching television and then nap. And if I have work, I always look forward to take rest after, especially if work is so tiring. But when I started shifting on what I usually do and decided to make a habit of spending time with God I’ve seen a huge difference in myself. This Truth also encourages me to do so,
“I can’t be the Woman of God, apart from my spending consistent time cultivating a relationship with Him, in Word & Prayer.” – Melot.
Our spending time with God is a decision
It is saying yes to study the bible and say no to watching television or scrolling on Facebook. We need to be intentional if we choose to grow in knowing who God is. I haven’t perfect not to be distracted in my spending time with God. Honestly, at first, I struggled because forming a new habit is a hard work. You need to persistently do it and put extra effort.
When Jesus chose to be the Mediator for our salvation, He was very intentional about it. The fact that He is God became man just like you and me and live in the earth. He was also subject to temptations and distractions of life like we do but never sinned, why? because He was fixing His life to the will of His Father. Jesus endured all the pain physically, emotionally, mentally, and spiritually. His perseverance of obeying His Father and saving humankind was all taken place in the process and not an instant way.
If we want to know our God, we need to dig down deep and it involves a lot of perseverance. We need to persistently spend time with God, study our bible and meditate on it day and night with our eyes fixed on Jesus.
“Christian life is not a comfortable life but a blessed life.” -Melot
I have chosen this path and I believe God will enable me and teach me how to live this life according to His ways as I submit to Him with an open heart and mind wholly surrendered to Him.
QUESTIONS FOR REFLECTION
Did the shaking shift you or made a difference in you? How did you deal with it?
Did you discover something new about God?
What habit did you start doing? Did it make you a better version of yourself? or are you still stuck in being at the moment of your life and still going into the motion of this world?
What habit did you end and how did it affects your life?